Brianna Lee™

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FINALLY. This journal is too old. & The username is lame.

So my birthday was awesome (September 18th)
I got a laptop :]
Finally.

My job is going great. The money situation is good. Im saving up for an apartment. I have health insurance. I have good benefits. Somethings missing. Oh yeah.. friends.
It seems like I've been so busy working, I never have time to see my friends. But wait.. they never have time for me either. Everyone has a boyfriend or girlfriend, or at least a significant other. Some people are away at college. I hate this. I feel like I have nobody here. Ever.

I guess you could say Im feeling kinda lonely. When im working Im fine. I can never be alone. But when Im not working, I find myself wondering if I ever have friends anymore. It's really sad. What has my social life come to? Nothing.

I have been really busy lately. Im working alot. But next week, I will have a set schedule as follows:
Sun: 9am-9pm
Mon: 2pm-10pm
Tues: 2pm-10pm
Wed: 12pm-10pm
Thurs: Im off
Fri: Im off
Sat: Im off

Im going to be making alot of money each week, which is awesome. I need it. I really need a new car. And eventually I want to move out and get an apartment with some friends or something. I really like my new job though. Granted, it can be kinda stressful and overwhelming.. but time flys by so fast, which is nice. Im pretty happy with things right now. The only bad thing is I had to take out my monroe ): But I will probably get it re-pierced and just put a retainer in it when im at work. Other than that, I love it so far. Everyone is so nice, caring, and supportive. It's a great environment to work in :]

Im finally getting my life together. I have a job. I have met alot of wonderful new people. I really think I will learn alot from my job. I just cannot explain how being around such positive, mature, and caring people can effect me. Im looking forward to learning, meeting more people, and enjoying it as much as I can.

I would love to get really deep into this, but my food has arrived. The Sampler from Pizzas by Evan = Amazing.

I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like a waste. I am. Why do I even bother being a good person, when people aren't even good to me?

I have some Jewelry/ Accessories that I don't want or need anymore..
So please buy some or all of it..
Im jobless, and I need the money.

I made most of this jewelry.. So if you're interested, please let me know if you want any of this stuff, nothing over $8!



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I finally went to club hell for the first time a few nights ago. It was fun, granted the music was kinda crappy. I really want to go to 80's night though. Randall and I want to go next Tuesday, if you're 18+ you should go with us! :]

So my health is getting better. Things are starting to look up. Im getting treated and whatnot. Im feeling so much better than I did about a week or two ago. I just want to go out and do things that I've been wanting to do for a while.

I went to an abandoned camp the other day, and it's pretty creepy. I wish it wasn't so hot out, otherwise I would have been exploring alot more. When it cools down a bit, I will be out exploring like its my job. I just wish I could find people to go with me. I have yet to find more exciting places on the cape. If there are any more.. that is.

I've been back in Massachusetts for about a week, and I am just now posting about my trip to Vermont. Haha. I had a good time, even though I didn't have anyone to hang out with. But it is really nice up there. Granted, theres not much in Vermont, but its nice, and the people are really down to earth.
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So the other day, I hung out with Kendra. We went to Taco Bell. And caused some ruckus.
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I finally cleaned my room. And to those who have seen my room, you will be shocked at how clean it is. You can see the floor! and my desk isn't a total mess. I feel so much better now that I have cleaned my room. For some reason, whenever Im upset or something is on my mind, I clean.

Alot has been running through my head. Should I move? Should I wait? Should I quit my job? Should I find a new job? I don't know where to start. Im pretty much piss poor. Im not in a fantastic mood right now. Things just really suck right now. And the one person I wish I could see more of, is always busy. I hate it. I just wish everything would get better. I was happy, then it just died down. I don't know what to do with my life. I really don't want to go to college. I just want to have a part-time or a full-time job, live off cape, and spend my extra time with my friends. You can't always get what you want. But If I want something bad enough, I will try. I hate writing entries like this. I don't want to bring anyone else down with me.